From College Chaos to Love and Loss: My Journey of Dreams and Heartbreak

 

After completing my plus two, my dream was to pursue higher studies in Bangalore or another state. But my father, who didn’t want me to leave Kerala, pushed me to write entrance exams since I had taken biomaths. As expected, I didn’t make it to the rank list. So, I decided to stay in Kerala and enrolled at National Huda College, Trivandrum.

National Huda College was unlike any college I had ever seen. With only 15 to 20 students in a class, boys and girls were separated, even with different class timings. Meeting a girl on or near the campus was a crime; the college had spies everywhere! Yet, my friend Suraj managed to marry Meera, who studied there. Ironically, Suraj was my classmate during my UG in National Huda, and Meera became my classmate during my MSc at MES College Marampally.

After just four months, I felt suffocated at National Huda College. Coming from a mixed-culture schooling background, this environment was unbearable. My dear friend Nader, who is no longer with us, was my support. He was studying at MES College Marampally, and then moved to MES College Ponnani as he was home sick.
So one day he took me to MES College, Marampally Campus, and when I visited, I fell in love with the campus and its vibrant mixed-culture environment. Nader and I immediately went to MG University, where I found out that an inter-university transfer was possible without losing a year. With my father's reluctant approval, my shuttle journeys between Trivandrum and Kottayam began until I finally secured my admission to MES College Marampally.

MES College Marampally felt like paradise—a garden full of flowers! My life became colorful with new friends, Stay at Barghavi Nilayam .... college elections, arts days, movies, and endless memories. I completed both my UG and PG there, deeply connecting with the campus and its people.

During my PG days, I met someone special. Though she wasn't from my college, we became close and eventually fell in love. Our bond was unbreakable. With a free-call connection from BPL, we stayed connected 24/7.
She was my greatest motivator, pushing me to excel in my studies and career, and there was a big reason for it …after getting a perfect job for me only we can talk about our Marriage to our parents,.
When I got my first part-time job at a call center in Kochi as Tech Support, Later at Bharti Telesoft, Life felt perfect when I landed a job at Bharti Telesoft and went to Delhi for training. And placed back to Cochin Zone, As VAS engineer.
with my first salary I bought gifts for her … Cochin as being a lovely metro city to explore after my Job hours we roamed around. It was like Heaven…

But to get married we kept a condition in between us, Need parents blessings..
Despite her mother's support, my father declined our relationship, and she was firm about marrying without parental blessings. I again and again asked my Mom to talk my Dad … but was a big Decline…...
As other does we can elope and get married …
Raising a child is a journey filled with countless struggles, sacrifices, and sleepless nights. From infancy to adolescence, parents dedicate their time, energy, and emotions to nurture, guide, and protect their child until they can stand on their own, making independent decisions.

Knowing this, is it fair to be selfish when choosing a life partner? Marriage is not just about personal happiness—it affects the lives of those who raised us with unconditional love. The universal truth remains: our choices should respect the sacrifices made for us, ensuring that love and gratitude always guide our decisions.

We agreed to part ways, but separation brought unbearable pain. I sank into deep depression, quitting my job and drowning in memories. Kochi, once filled with our moments, became a painful reminder. Sleepless nights and chain-smoking became my routine. She eventually married someone else, and both of us suffered in silence. I knew she was also suffering …...My family, especially my mother and sisters, were my pillars during those dark times.

Amid my struggle, my doctor advised a change. Though I swore never to leave India, I moved to Dubai with my father's support. Within a month, I landed a job in Abu Dhabi and began rebuilding my life. Projects, team leadership, and continuous learning kept me occupied. Yet, the past lingered; hearing her voice brought both joy and sorrow. To heal, I turned to physical fitness, learning about dopamine and the power of exercise.
My parents began searching for a partner for me. I experienced another heartbreak when a brief engagement ended abruptly…. The funny part was when I met her …she first gifted me small and cute crystal Dolls…
Then came Noufira—the woman who brought colors back into my life. She took my life to another Phase … which still goes on ….
more to come ..... Stay tuned....